Hey Unloving...

Soooooo... Yeah. Who am I? A distressed teen who doesn't know where to go in life? I lost follower of Jesus Christ? A kid that doesn't know right from wrong? Why the heck am I even writing this thing? Oh well.

Most of the time I waste my day away on the computer, or wishing I was some sort of rockstar. But i'm not. I'm a kid that is stuck home all summer, trying to do my best to stay out of trouble at home... Not really... But anyways... I play guitar. I have a black Ibanez AEG which I named Lucy... Most of the time i'm playing her i'm wishing I had a different guitar. Don't get me wrong, I love her. But she's not the greatest... I also have a Les Paul with a broken string at the moment... I'm sorta, not really teaching myself piano. And maybe start on drums... I don't know... Music is my life. My current favorite artist is John Mark McMillan... He gets really deep when it comes to putting Jesus and music together... I like it a lot. I am a hater of stereotypical christian music. Like all the terrible sounding bands that are on the radio... I doesn't sound good to me at all. I would rather listen to something like Michael Jackson, or Queen. In general... I like the good music. The stuff that makes you think. If my life were a song then it would be pretty climatic... If your life was a song how would you describe it?

Hmmmm... My life... A touchy subject. I have six siblings. Four boy's, two girls. I'm an uncle. It's pretty exciting to be fifteen and an uncle. Four nephews and one niece... My niece is the cutest little three-year old you'll ever meet. She'll dance with you if you ask. I used to hate the song Fireflies by Owl City until she asked me to dance with her to it... Now I love it. You can turn something unwanted into something beautiful can't you? Anyways... My dad is Class A Contractor... He's good at it. He used to live in Colorado and build log cabins. Thats a man job. I want a man job when i'm older. But that probably won't happen.

My dad likes interesting music. His favorite CD is the soundtrack from Gladiator. Over all he's a pretty epic guy. So it fits him... He would definitely be a gladiator if he lived back two thousand years. He would be the best. You know... The one that wins every challenge and then in the end swoops his lover of her feet and goes off into the sunset. That would be my dad. But he's not a gladiator. Oh well. I honestly wonder what God's song would be like. I'm thinking pretty amazing. I wonder what i'll be singing when I see Him in the end of the age... Probably something like this...

~You and I meet
On the shores of the broken
You swallow the ocean
I Swallow my pride
Only to see
The way that I need you
Is more than I knew
I ever could

In between the ashes and the flames
Is a cry an awkward silence
Could never contain
And the falling of my hammers
And the writhing of my pain
Is just not as real as the way
That your calling my name

I cant help thinking
That the way that you want me
And the ghost that haunts me
Are one and the same
Cause you stand at my window
At night wile I'm sleeping
There's not a promise I'm keeping
That could ever repay you

In between the ashes and the flames
There's a song that burns brighter
Than Radio waves
Bout the remnants of my Idols
And the shadow of my shame
About how they scatter like the rain and I can't stop crying
Cause you wont stop calling my name

Calling my name up from the ashes ~

Don't get me wrong. I did NOT write that song. It's called Ashes And Flames by John Mark McMillan. Go listen to it.

I feel like i'm writing a book. So now i'll conclude these ramblings of a fifteen year old guy who has nothing better to do...